I have been called an angel and hero by many survivors. Thousands have sent me letters thanking me. There is someone else far more deserving of that thank you who is the true hero. For without Him no one would know me. He is the greatest therapist you could ever ask for and guess what he is free and all it will cost you is to believe in Him. No appointment needed He will always make time day or night for you. His advice is far greater then any advice you will ever get. You just have to listen and you will hear Him.
He will catch your tears and comfort you when you are in pain. He will take your biggest burdens and carry them for you. He will fill your heart and soul with the energy to get out of bed and face another day. He will remind you when you need to be reminded by dropping hints right in front of your face. He will hold your hand as you move forward letting you know He is with you all the way. He has your entire life mapped out and molded each and every single one of us into a unique individual with a purpose. Some people spend a lifetime trying to discover their purpose on this Earth for others they discover it early on in life. Many turn towards Him the most when in need of help many others turn against Him when tragedy happens wondering how someone with his power can allow such evil to exist in a world like the one we live in.
If you have not figured out who He is that I am talking about it is God our Father who gave up his only son for our sins. Whether you believe in Him (the father, son, and holy spirit) or not He is the answer to everything. He created us with a freedom of choice to choose to do good or bad in this lifetime.
I describe in the books I have written talking about leading people out of silence and darkness and towards breaking their silence and the light. The deeper message behind that is how God is using me to show people to Him. Lead those in darkness to open that door and accept Christ into their lives. Be a witness to those who grew up in a home where the Lord was not spoken of. For when I get to the end of this lifetime I feel when I reach the gates of Heaven standing before me will not be those who I helped break their silence but those I lead to believe Jesus died for our sins and accept him into their life.
He was there when the nearly seven year old that I was, was held down and raped on a bed. He could of rescued me by calling me home to be with Him, instead He knew His purpose when He created me. He held my hand and walked me home that day. He lead the young girl I was away from evil and did not allow it to kill me. Evil lured the young innocent child I was back. He lead my parents to put their home up for sale to guide me away from the evil on this Earth. Only for evil to attack me again this time much closer to home in my own family through my cousin. Back then I would cry out to Him to protect me but I was not yet strong enough to expose the evil I witnessed. I distanced myself for years turning away from Him. Still believing in Him but losing all faith in Him. I turned down many destructive paths self-injury, suicide attempt, and anorexia. When I finally started listening to Him I would hear Him say I have given you this life why are you destroying it. He spoke to me when I was 16 years old after swallowing a bottle of pills that this was not my time and I had a purpose in this life. He stopped me at 18 years old walking upstairs to my bedroom to take razors to my wrists and told me to turn back around and lead me to the computer where I typed out a 5 page letter. A letter filled with a lot of anger and rage towards a cousin that molested me. He was speaking to me then showing me over the course of the next several months the darkness I was staying in by holding on to all this anger, rage, and pain. I heard Him loud and clear “I will repay your enemies trust in me, do not be overcome by this evil but overcome this evil with good.” just as it says in the Bible. He was giving me a clear picture of His purpose for me. I was allowing this evil to consume me and stay stuck in the darkness. He was softening my heart to forgive, teach others to forgive and lead those in the dark to Him. He would have to remind me more then once to trust Him and have faith in Him. The wonders he has been doing in my life since then has been remarkable. The fireworks he has set off in my soul is something I wish for everyone to experience. The conversations I have on a daily basis with Him constantly give me the drive and thrive to accomplish what He has set forth for me to do. When I tell people not to doubt me in the things I have set out to accomplish in this life, I say that because I am walking along side God every step of the way and with Him anything is possible. When I say I will move mountains I mean it because I got God moving them with me and hope you will join us.
The number 1 question I get asked all the time over and over the past 6 years is “Where do I get the strength and courage to do what I do?” The answer is simple just ask for God and you will understand you just have to have faith in Him and not doubt Him and you too can experience what I am experiencing.
Think of the person in your life that has caused you the greatest pain. Still thinking of that same person if you were given the opportunity to sit down and have coffee with this person for an hour “What would you talk about?” Some of you might be reading this saying “Are you nuts I would never sit down and have coffee with that person!” For many others you would let that person know how much pain they have caused you and even show anger. Many would want answers, others would want an apology.
I have been in all those places in my life wanting to scream anger at those who have hurt me, wanting answers, and an apology. That is not how it is anymore. If I were to be sitting across from the man that raped me as a child and the cousin that molested me I would spend an hour talking only of our God and the son He gave who died on the cross for our sins. I would pray for the evil inside of them. For that is how I would show the evil in both of them of how I have overcome their evil with good. With a chance of showing them a life with God and not Satan something I know they both battle with. Most would find the ability to do that impossible, but nothing is impossible if you have a relationship with God. That is what is possible if you have faith in Him and Believe. Anything is POSSIBLE!
That is how you learn to “Live For Today” which is why I ended that book with
“Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good”
So the question is Do you know Him?
But I tell you who hear me: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you (Luke 6:27-28)
Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everybody. If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,” says the Lord. On the contrary: “If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head. “Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good. (Romans 12: 17-21)
I tell you the truth, anyone who has faith in me will do what I have been doing. He will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father. And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Son may bring glory to the Father. You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it.- John 14:12-14
For God so greatly loved and dearly prized the world that He [even] gave up His only begotten (unique) Son, so that whoever believes in (trusts in, clings to, relies on) Him shall not perish (come to destruction, be lost) but have eternal (everlasting) life. John 3:16
Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit. – Matthew 28:19
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. -Jeremiah 29:11
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” – Matthew 11:28
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. -Romans 8:28